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Unless it's mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it's a waste of your time.
There are too many mediocre things in life, love shouldn't be one of them.
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| the kite runner |
[15 May 2008|11:04pm] |
"War doesn't negate decency. It demands it, even more than in times of peace."
"time can be a greedy thing--sometimes it steals all the details for itself."
"One time, when I was really little, I climbed a tree and ate these green, sour apples. My stomach swelled and became hard like a drum, it hurt a lot. Mother said that if I'd just waited for the apples to ripen, I wouldn't have become sick. So now, whenever I really want something, I try to remember what she said about the apples."
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[16 May 2008|12:19am] |
Caroline laughs and
It's raining all day
She loves to be one of the girls
She lives in the place
In the side of our lives
Where nothing is
Ever put straight
She turns herself round
And she smiles and she says
'This is it'
'That's the end of the joke'
And loses herself
In her dreaming and sleep
And her lovers walk
Through in their coats
Pretty in pink
Isn't she?
Pretty in pink
Isn't she?
All of her lovers
All talk of her notes
And the flowers
That they never sent
And wasn't she easy
And isn't she
Pretty in pink
The one who insists
He was first in the line
Is the last to
Remember her name
He's walking around
In this dress
That she wore
She is gone
But the joke's the same
Pretty in pink
Isn't she?
Pretty in pink
Isn't she?
Caroline talks to you
Softly sometimes
She says
'I love you' and
'Too much'
She doesn't have anything
You want to steal
Well
Nothing you can touch
She waves
She buttons your shirt
The traffic
Is waiting outside
She hands you this coat
She gives you her clothes
These cars collide
Pretty in pink
Isn't she?
Pretty in pink
Isn't she?
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[15 May 2008|08:38pm] |
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when are people going to start thinking for themselves.
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[15 May 2008|05:37pm] |
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when you count your blessings you end up in debt
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[15 May 2008|03:14pm] |
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what do i do now
this isnt for your sake.
i do this for a piece of mind
and yet it still does not give me a piece of mind.
even if i wanted to explain to you
how i felt
or what i thought
i couldn't.
i didn't know that this would be so hard
i let my guard down once again
i should've known better.
although i don't want to know better.
i want more than this.
why do i do this to myself.
this is making me fucking crazy.
something so amazing yet so fucking hard at the same time.
a few more days until reality hits. and i am not ready
what is it like to feel wanted?
i want to know what it is like for once.
and have it be something genuine.
i want to be certain that it is mutual
that i am not aiming for something
nearly impossible to reach
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[15 May 2008|01:25am] |
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don't be so amazing or i'll miss you too much
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[14 May 2008|10:28pm] |
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Hello I'm new and I've been checking this page for months and I've finally joined. Here's a quote I love, I don't know the author but if anyone does, please let me know :)
"For need can blossom into all the compensation it requires. To crave and to have are as like a thing and it's shadow. For when does a berry break upon the tongue as sweetly as when one longs to taste it, and when is the taste refracted into so many hues and savors of ripeness and earth, and when do our senses know anything so utterly as when we lack it? And here again is foreshadowing, the world will be made whole. For to wish for a hand on one's hair may lose, very craving gives it back to us again. Though we dream and hardly know it, longing, like an angel fosters us, smoothes our hair, and brings us wild strawberries."
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[14 May 2008|10:26pm] |
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"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of because words diminish them- words shrink things that seem limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure you enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried when you were saying it. That's the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller, but for want of an understanding ear." -Stephen King, "The Body"
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[14 May 2008|07:44pm] |
Still Breathing x Cauterize
Tear me open at the seams.
Take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe, to breathe.
"I'm not cold," she said,
but she's shaking as she's lying next to me naked.
Pulled the hair back from her face to let that smile heat this place.
And this feels so far from real.
I'm lost and I love it.
I can't take it, if you're waiting.
I am ready to tell the world about a girl
who showed me love again for the first time.
And it's everything I dreamed of.
Tell me what you thought about when you were breathing oh so loud,
screaming oh so loud.
Tell me if this is real.
I need to know before I get too close.
So here we lie in this beautiful mess of tangled sheets and beads of sweat.
With my heart in your hand and my neck in the other,
should I be scared or should I come closer?
But it's still beating and I'm still breathing.
You haven't hurt me yet.
I can't take it, if you're waiting.
I am ready to tell the world about a girl
who showed me love again for the first time.
And it's everything I dreamed of.
Tell me what you thought about when you were breathing oh so loud,
screaming oh so loud.
Tell me if this is real.
I need to know before I get too close.
Morning always comes too quick when you're around, when you're around.
You leave me lying here so they don't find us out, they'll find us out.
Tear me open at the seams, take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe.
I can't take it, if you're waiting.
I am ready to tell the world about a girl
who showed me love again for the first time.
And it's everything I dreamed of.
I can't take it, if you're waiting.
I am ready to tell the world about a girl
who showed me love again for the first time.
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| back in black... ink that is |
[14 May 2008|07:18pm] |
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"This Is Only The Beginning" (Ink on paper, 2008)
"I Have Grown Quite Fond Of You" (Ink on paper, 2008)
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[14 May 2008|04:37pm] |
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"She slid her hand into his, and pressed. He pressed back, and they held each other in this subtle way. Maybe, if they pressed hard enough, a little of what they felt for each other would seep out of their skin and become absorbed in the other's, bringing them that much closer to one another." - Unknown
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| who loves being naked? |
[14 May 2008|04:25pm] |
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Im feeling kind of mixed up currently. I want to say that I am happy but I don't want to get ahead of myself. My money situation is dwindling as we speak and I need to get a second job. Marriott banquets are slow over the summer and I have rent to pay now. So I tried applying to two different restaurants but theyre not hiring.... soo unfortunately I might have to get a job at the mall again because I know this is the season that clothing stores hire "seasonal" employees.
Triana cut my hair last weekend and Im so obsessed with it. I can't stop taking pictures and playing with it. Im not trying to sound into myself...but more so into my hair. hahahaha
I havent danced in a LONG time. Im gaining weight in odd areas and id like to put that to an end like SOON.
Theres a bunch of wild chickens, geese, and other wild animals living in a home across from where I live. And my window is faced towards this house and I hear roosters and chickens as we speak. Kinda fun.
Im unsure about Sarasota even though I know its where I should be going to school. I can't wait to be in a school that is directed towards what I want to do and the faculty/staff are literally WAITING for me in August. =)
Im really not trying to give yall a visual or turn anyone on/off. But im currently naked sitting on my bed and its probably the best feeling ive had in awhile. Its fun you should try it.
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| A Softer World |
[14 May 2008|09:40pm] |
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"Mistakes aren't always regrets."
"I'd rather die terrified than live forever."
"Tell me your heart doesn't race for a hurricane or a burning building."
All from the same comic.
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[14 May 2008|08:55am] |
Misery Business - Paramore
I'm in the business of misery, let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass it's tickin' like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out...
When I thought he was mine, she caught him by the mouth
I waited a long while, she finally set him free
I told him I couldn't lie, he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we'd caught on fire
She's got it out for me, but I wear the biggest smile
Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more, I'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passed it up, now look this way!
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like, it's "easy if you do it right"
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good
I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now...
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good
I saw paramore on saturday, they were so good :D
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[13 May 2008|10:08pm] |
"I think we have to get through all that stuff, you know, to get to the place we want to be." - Lucas, One Tree Hill
"How they dance in the courtyard, sweet summer sweat.
Some dance to remember, some dance to forget." - The Eagles
"I have to hate you, she said. You know too much about me to be trusted." StoryPeople.com
"Frustrated because it's going too fast to see but if you could see it, it wouldn't make any sense because you'd be looking too close." StoryPeople.com
Wouldn't it be a lovely headline,
"Life is Beautiful,"
On the New York Times - Rufus Wainwright
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[13 May 2008|02:07pm] |
I had a dream last night, I'll share it with you.
I was part of a four-man cover band. The other three members were Miles, Daniel and I assume James Stankowicz. We were performing at a hillside bar with an outdoor stage, the whole thing had a kind of redneck aura to it. Miles was being really chill but Daniel was pissed off for some reason. At one point Daniel said something rude and Miles just walked away, Daniel went a very feminine tirade where he just threw something metal on the grass. I asked him what he was throwing and he answered "What the fuck do you care!?" I told him if it was thumbtacks I would want to know so I don't step on them. The fourth person (James?) laughed at my answer.
After a while a million people came to watch us play. It was kind of understood that we were 'washed up' (even though we were a cover band) but everyone was excited to see us play, especially the ladies. There was a pregnant girl at the show who seemed really eager to talk to me. She pulled me aside as we were getting offstage and started talking, I asked her how she knew so much about me and if we had met before. She said we'd never met but a friend of her had obsessed over me since high school and she knew all about me through her. Her friend was Leah Hankins (of former JPTV fame) and I was in awe. I talked to Leah for a while but she was very shy and embarassed so it was short-lived.
I headed back towards the bar and met up with the band to load some stuff back on the truck. While we were doing that Miles pulled out some hilarious greeting cards he had made for his dad for father's day. Basically what he did was superimpose both he and his father's faces onto famous movie posters to produce a very homoerotic look. We all had a good laugh, even James... assuming it was him.
The dream had a lasting sensation of nostalgia, like even though I was still in the moment I knew as soon as it finished I would miss it like crazy. I do that sometimes, whenever I'm in top of the world I start to get sad because I know it won't last long enough.
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[13 May 2008|10:35am] |
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"Life is not math class. There is more than one right answer."
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"He went to work. His boss got in his facwe because he was late - third time this week. One more time and he would be fired. He pulled out a gun and put five shots into his boss' guts. He walked out the backdoor and into the sunlight. It was going to be a great day." - "Black Coffee Blues" Henry Rollins.
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